For ninjou.

[tenimuho]

[Tonight, Dazai is really drunk.

This is not different from most other nights in their favorite bar, save for a few things.

1. Ango isn't here.

2. Dazai is really drunk. The kind of drunk that has Odasaku concerned that he might be trying to die through liver failure. That drunk.

And so, it's with hesitation that he speaks up.]

Maybe you should stop drinking for tonight.

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[ninjou]

Right.

[He can laugh at that, right? Dazai isn't being the troublesome one for once!]

...what did you think I...?

[tenimuho]

I don't want to say.

[But he's red and looking anywhere but at Dazai's face, so that should be telling enough.]

[ninjou]

[What.... Now Dazai gets to turn a little pink, despite his grin.]

So you want... that?

[tenimuho]

It's just what I thought you meant.

[He's not actively denying it, though. That sure is an interesting spot on the wall.]

[ninjou]

It's so sudden! I just kissed you yesterday!

[He is going to enjoy this for a mo--

Oh shit. Dazai's eyes widen a little.]

Do you... um. I mean, have you...?

[Dazai, use your words or he'll misunderstand.]

[tenimuho]

...I don't know what you mean and I don't want to guess wrong again.

[Because that got them into this embarrassing conversation to begin with.]

[ninjou]

[He gestures vaguely with one hand.]

You seemed really surprised when I kissed you. I thought you didn't care that much. If you're thinking about that... you're moving too fast, right? For someone who doesn't like me like that...? Wasn't this all me?

[tenimuho]

...I don't think about this sort of thing very often, so I don't know exactly how to say it.

[Odasaku tries to carefully put his words together. It's hestiant, but at least he's looking at Dazai again.]

I think I could be happy even if things didn't change between us. If things went back to normal and we just stayed friends.

But... I also think I'd be happy if you kissed me again, and I wouldn't feel that way about any other person.

It's not just you.

[ninjou]

Ah.

[Dazai is smart and clever and he thinks on his feet but... this is almost too interesting. He's thinking about this too hard. He's actually imagining what it would be like to be able to be something that's the same but with more kissing and...

Well.

That one might change things. Even if he'd pretty much do anything for Odasaku.]

They didn't change, for me. I've liked you for a long time. I just didn't have the opportunity to tell you properly. So my feelings aren't different at all.

[tenimuho]

...I guess I'm not very observant.

[At least not when it comes to things that have to do with him.]

I'm not good at this part, so please be patient with me.

[This part - all the feelings. He could kiss him all day, that isn't the problem here.]

[ninjou]

[Dazai hums thoughtfully.]

Don't look at me and see my title or rank, okay? We're friends. [He said it. The F word.] You need something better in your life than me, but we can still do things like this, right?

[tenimuho]

I can do that.

[He'll have to train himself out of seeing Dazai as better than him, but he thinks it's possible. Especially knowing that Dazai feels the same way about him.]

...But please don't feel like you're making me or I'm just doing it to make you happy. I want to do this too.

[If that's not clear, he can't do anything.]

[ninjou]

[Up off the floor Dazai goes, heading for the kitchen. Good talk, go team.]

You'd never do that. I don't think you like hurting people as much as I do.

[Food... food...]

By the way, I'll let you be on top.

[tenimuho]

[Odasaku is up on his feet when Dazai says that last bit.

He nearly walks into the wall.]

[ninjou]

[SUCCESS.]

I like having my hair pulled. And biting. I'll even let you take my bandages off.

[DAZAI IS A VICIOUS MAN.]

[tenimuho]

Dazai.

[You are going to actually kill him. His blush goes up to his ears.]

[ninjou]

[THIS IS TOO RICH.]

I get pretty loud... and you can call me names...

[BEST DAY OF HIS LIFE.]

[tenimuho]

[He is going to die of embarrassment. The only option left to him is to strike back.

Problem: he hasn't spent nearly as long as Dazai thinking about this.]

...I... like giving oral...

[He cannot look at Dazai when saying that, which doesn't help him with this revenge thing.]

[ninjou]

[DAZAI WAS KIDDING.

OH NO.

POOR PURE ODASAKU.

DOES HE TELL THE TRUTH OR DOES HE GO WITH IT OR SOMETHING IN THE MIDDLE?

MIDDLE.]

I was sort of kidding. I've never had sex with a guy.

[He is staring RIGHT AT HIM he wants to see this reaction.]

[tenimuho]

[Dazai. That at least makes him look at Dazai, and although he's still bright red-]

That's good. ...I didn't want to hurt you anyway.

[He isn't going to pull Dazai's hair or bite him unless he asks really nicely.]

[ninjou]

[So pure. So very pure.

He smiles and walks back over to Odasaku, not ignoring his problem, but trying to press right up against him and corner him.]

Be gentle. Does it feel good, though? It seems like it wouldn't...

[tenimuho]

[He'd almost sort of gotten that problem to go away, Dazai, now it's back with a vengeance.]

It does feel good.

[His voice is a little strained. He's not sure where he wants to put his hands right now.]

[ninjou]

Were you on top?

[Invasive personal questions 101 with Dazai. He doesn't mind or care. He's so curious. One hand rests on Odasaku's head.]

I'm not going to do it with anybody else, if we do it.

[tenimuho]

I've done both.

[Out of curiosity's sake, more than anything else. He's also slept with a woman once, which was more 'eh'.]

I won't do it with anyone else either.

[One of Odasaku's hands gently finds a place on Dazai's back - the other strokes his cheek lightly.]

[ninjou]

You don't have to say something like that. I just don't like guys. That's all.

[He leans on him and smiles.]

You're not just some guy.