For ninjou.

[tenimuho]

[Tonight, Dazai is really drunk.

This is not different from most other nights in their favorite bar, save for a few things.

1. Ango isn't here.

2. Dazai is really drunk. The kind of drunk that has Odasaku concerned that he might be trying to die through liver failure. That drunk.

And so, it's with hesitation that he speaks up.]

Maybe you should stop drinking for tonight.

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[tenimuho]

[He shivers - Dazai can no doubt feel it.]

Not cute.

[ninjou]

[It is felt and noted. And echoed.]

God... [Another little laugh.] Don't do that.

[tenimuho]

I should be the one saying that. You're teasing me.

[It's mean, Dazai. You're mean.]

[ninjou]

You called me cute. I have to make you suffer for that.

[Mean is his middle name. What if he slides one of Odasaku's shirt buttons open...]

[tenimuho]

I won't say it again.

[...he'll get the other buttons undone for Dazai. The open shirt hangs loosely on his shoulders.

Don't take so long, you tease.]

[ninjou]

[Lord, he's getting eager again. Dazai should stop. He's being the worst friend in the history of friends.

No. He can control himself. He's just going to put a hand on Odasaku's chest, feeling the warmth here as he slides fingers so they settle over his heart.]

Can we go sit?

[tenimuho]

[Oh. Right. Not rushing. Hard to remember in this entire conversation of talking about pulling hair and then all this.

He nods, and goes to settle down on the couch. He's one of those people who doesn't slouch or take up too much space.]

[ninjou]

[That part was a joke~~~~~

Dazai waits a moment before following, then walks over and takes his half of the couch practically on top of Odasaku. He sits beside him and waits just a beat before reaching up to gently turn his head and kiss him.]

[tenimuho]

[It was a sex joke, don't tilde at him-

Kisses are good. Odasaku can still be gentle with kisses, though 'chaste' is a bit beyond him now. His lips part almost immediately.]

[ninjou]

[Sex jokes are fine too~~~~~

So do Dazai's. He might be behaving compared to Odasaku, but he's not sitting here passively. This kiss is, in short order, rather like Dazai's normal style. It's bold, and what he doesn't have in experience, he makes up for quite readily by being intense and generous. He's practically purring.]

[tenimuho]

[Mean.

Isn't that a strange thought, Dazai being the one behaving? But it's true - Odasaku meets Dazai's boldness with his own, not minding his inexperience one bit. He tangles his hand in Dazai's hair (it's so soft), resisting the urge to just pull him closer.

The purring is cute. He knows not to say that now.]

[ninjou]

[Enjoy the tildes~~

It's Dazai being happy without say something weird... Alright, maybe he's doing something weird...? He's not sure. Is kissing Odasaku a natural progression of everything else he's done? He's looked at Odasaku with eyes unlike anyone else for a long time. So what if he jumped on that opportunity? Maybe it's inappropriate. Maybe he should stop. Maybe he shouldn't make a tiny, content sound at the hand in his hair.]

[tenimuho]

[Maybe. Maybe he should stop. Maybe Odasaku should stop, shouldn't tilt Dazai's head up to kiss his jaw instead. Maybe this all should be put under the rug for another day or possibly never.

But Odasaku doesn't really want to be told that right now. He'd still listen, but it's not what he wants to hear.]

[ninjou]

[He just wants to kiss him until he's bored. Is that too much to ask? Although he'll find it harder to get bored if he keeps doing other things, just like that. A little laugh bubbles up at the kiss to his jaw, and he tips his head to the side some.]

This is dangerous.

[tenimuho]

We do dangerous things all the time.

[They're mafia members. It's in the job description.]

[ninjou]

Not this kind of dangerous.

[If he gets used to this, they're screwed.]

[tenimuho]

No, I guess not.

[It's not the same at all.]

...Is it worth it?

[Odasaku knows his answer, whether closeness to Dazai now is worth hurting himself later, but he can't make that decision for Dazai.]

[ninjou]

[He wants to say yes, yell it, scream it, melt into Odasaku and never leave, because he's been doing this since he woke up and it's all kind of weird... His whole perception of it is skewed by newness and wish fulfillment.]

I don't know yet.

[Because their intimacy is absolutely worth a lot, and he's enjoying it, and looking forward to more if it ever happens. But the situations it could put them in if any of it gets out from behind closed doors........ not worth getting Odasaku completely destroyed. Dazai is invincible. Odasaku isn't. Not socially.]

[tenimuho]

[Odasaku doesn't consider many people his friends to begin with. There's not much worth destroying. (Can you even imagine Ango trying to bully him over this? Really?)

But he gets some of what Dazai's saying.]

I guess it's hard to tell until it's over. That's how these things work.

[He knows more from what he's read than actual experience.]

[ninjou]

[Over?]

I don't want it to ever be over. [He laughs.] Maybe someday I'll take that back. I'm that kind of person. [Oh, fuck it. He'll just slide over so he's straddling Odasaku's lap, facing him, looking down at him with a smile.] Do you ever look at me and think I'm naive? Or too young to understand?

[tenimuho]

[Odasaku shakes his head. Dazai understands everything about the world too well - that's his problem.]

I don't think anyone would call you naive.

[ninjou]

[He looks thoughtful.]

Not even about this?

[tenimuho]

Inexperienced, maybe. But not naive.

[For example, he knows exactly what he's doing to Odasaku by straddling him like that.]

[ninjou]

Do you think it's a mistake?

[He's genuinely curious. Oda's older and wiser. Or something.]

[tenimuho]

No.

[An answer after a moment's thought.]

It might still go badly. I don't predict things as well as you do. [Outside of using Flawless, of course.] But it's not a mistake for me.