For ningen, yandasaku. Sorry Dazai.

[hurrayformarriage]

[Dazai's been following Akutagawa around a lot. He really does admire him, yeah? Always has.

It's fine to admire someone, but Odasaku isn't sure Dazai understands that Akutagawa isn't going to return his admiration. Akutagawa isn't going to be the one to make him happy. That's Odasaku. It's always been Odasaku.

Luckily, Odasaku is the master of sounding casual and relaxed when he doesn't feel relaxed at all.]

I heard Akutagawa talking about you.

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[hurrayformarriage]

[He knows, or at least he gets the idea.]

I'm not leavin' you, Dazai. Not for anything.

[Not even for death. Death can stuff it, because Dazai is more important.]

[ningen]

[Death just... it doesn't scare him, and does. More the deaths of others than his own.]

Thanks. Thank you. I mean it.

[hurrayformarriage]

Nah. There ain't nothin' you gotta thank me for.

[Given the whole 'lying to his face' thing, he's probably actually right here.]

[ningen]

Why not? You told me the truth and you're still staying with me. It's pretty cool...

[A smile. Odasaku is just cool anyway.]

[hurrayformarriage]

That's just what you do for people you like, y'know?

[Nothing incredibly praiseworthy.]

[ningen]

No... a lot of people wouldn't have said anything. I'd look pretty stupid.

[Now he'll just have to... move on...]

[hurrayformarriage]

[It'll be hard, but Dazai can move on from Akutagawa. Odasaku believes in him!

...he might have to encourage him a little more later, if this isn't enough.]

I can't do somethin' like that to you. No way. Even if it hurts a little, you oughta know.

[ningen]

He's been pretty nice about it... so I was surprised. That's all... just surprised.

[He can move on. He's so lucky to have a great person in his life.]

[hurrayformarriage]

Sometimes people'll lie to your face and you don't even got a clue.

[#hypocrisy]

[ningen]

[Ouch.]

I guess you're right about that.

[hurrayformarriage]

[it's okay when he does it

because reasons]

You'll be alright, yeah? Just takes a while to get over it.

[ningen]

[Odasaku would never lie to him...]

It's fine! I don't need to spend all my time doing that kind of thing. I could be writing.

[hurrayformarriage]

If you write all the time, you'll wear yourself out.

[He understands how Dazai is.]

[ningen]

There's nothing wrong with that!

[Just smile, Dazai! Find something to be happy about!]

I'm amazing.

[hurrayformarriage]

Even amazing people like you oughta take care of themselves. Or you'll just end up tryin' to hurt yourself again.

[He doesn't want that, both for Dazai's sake and his own.]

[ningen]

[SMILING. SMILE.]

I'm kind of in the mood now, though. You should come write, too.

[hurrayformarriage]

[He can't turn down an invitation like that.]

For a little while. And then we'll stop and rest, okay?

[ningen]

[He looks relieved.]

Great! I'll be your biggest fan forever.

[hurrayformarriage]

I'd like you better as my friend than my fan, y'know.

[It'd be weird thinking of Dazai that way. He isn't someone who usually sleeps with his fans.]

[ningen]

Well, I can be both... It's not...

[Dammit Odasaku, just let him cope in his own way!!!]

[hurrayformarriage]

Welllll, I guess I wouldn't mind bein' a replacement Akutagawa-sensei...

[If it means Dazai will fixate on him instead, then that's just fine.]

[ningen]

You're way better than him, after all! I mean, I always knew it, but now I can say it confidently.

[Hug... him...]

[hurrayformarriage]

[Can do, bracket text. Odasaku hugs Dazai, pulling him tight to his chest.

It's everything he's ever wanted to hear from Dazai.]

[ningen]

[The hug is just what Dazai needed, and he buries his face right against Odasaku's shoulder with a sigh.]

We can do this for a while, too.

[hurrayformarriage]

I ain't gonna complain about hugging somebody I like.

[He ends up petting Dazai's hair lightly.]