For ninjou, yandazai~

[tenimuho]

[Someone who knows Odasaku as well as Dazai does surely noticed from the moment that Odasaku entered the bar, but he's in a surprisingly good mood tonight. He's humming a little, his steps are lighter, and there's even the hint of a genuine smile on his face as he sits down.

Ango's not here tonight, so it's just the two of them and the bartender.

Inquire as to what's made him so pleased?]

Comments

[ninjou]

You expect me to look at you every day when you're making such a stupid decision? You're doing this without even thinking. After everything I did, it's still like this. Though...

[Dazai pauses.]

There's someone else, isn't there.

[tenimuho]

There isn't anyone else.

[Not someone he's romantically interested in.]

[ninjou]

No one else...

[Yet Dazai is still being rejected. He can't handle it. He can't handle not getting the one thing he wants in this life.]

[tenimuho]

No one else.

[Sorry, you can't solve this with murder.]

[ninjou]

What's wrong with me?

[Something... anything is better than just "I don't feel the same".]

[tenimuho]

[Morally and emotionally speaking, a lot.]

There isn't any specific reason I'm not in love with you. I'm just... not. I'm sorry.

[ninjou]

[Picky bastard.]

You probably think you deserve better, right? [Dazai pushes his hair back, pausing with his hand on top of his head, looking dramatic and somehow unbelievably strained.] After everything... Well, you know you can't... you can't find good people, when you're one of us, you know?

it's providence I reupped his paid today

[tenimuho]

I don't think I deserve better. I've never thought that.

[Really, Dazai, his self-esteem is terrible, you should know that.]

what is "paid" lol

[ninjou]

[Dazai is not using his brilliant mind right now. At all. He's angry and upset.]

Better than me, at least.

:>

[tenimuho]

I don't think I even deserve you as a friend, most of the time. I definitely don't deserve better.

WEEPS

[ninjou]

[His hand slides off his head and he advances on Odasaku.]

You do. You're one of the best ones here. And I love you.

[tenimuho]

...I'm sorry.

[Odasaku doesn't back up. Still not afraid of Dazai, despite everything.]

[ninjou]

Don't say that.

[He put a hand on Odasaku's shoulder.]

Just say yes.

[tenimuho]

[He doesn't want to say yes, and the pause before his answer shows that.]

...I can't.

[ninjou]

But why?

[Dazai moved in closer, his hand sliding against Odasaku's neck.]

[tenimuho]

[That sure is Dazai's hand on Oda's neck, let Oda just... casually try to pry it off.]

It isn't fair to say yes to you when I don't feel the same way.

[ninjou]

You could try it. I'm patient.

[That's a damn lie. Dazai forces the issue, moving even closer, so he's almost pressed to Odasaku now.]

[tenimuho]

You'd end up feeling worse. And so would I.

[ninjou]

I wouldn't.

[He leans in suddenly, trying for a kiss.]

[tenimuho]

[Dazai's lips meet the palm of Oda's hand instead, held up between them.]

I said no, Dazai.

[ninjou]

[He pushes the hand down.]

You're serious.

[tenimuho]

I've been serious the whole time.

[Dazai isn't changing his mind, discussion over, kissing attempts over.]

[ninjou]

It doesn't make sense. You know that.

[His eyes cast away though, and he steps back.]

Never mind. Just... go. And don't tell anyone about this, or I will kill you.

[tenimuho]

I won't tell anyone.

[Dazai's private business is his business, and even if anyone would believe him, Oda wouldn't say a word.

Who would he even tell? He hardly knows anyone besides Ango and his kids, and both of those are obviously bad ideas.]

[ninjou]

[Dazai moved for he door, pointedly unlocking it and opening it for Odasaku to leave. He looked anywhere but at the other man. He couldn't let the hurt in his eyes be seen, after all.]

And don't... bother trying to talk to me for a while.