For ninjou, yandazai~

[tenimuho]

[Someone who knows Odasaku as well as Dazai does surely noticed from the moment that Odasaku entered the bar, but he's in a surprisingly good mood tonight. He's humming a little, his steps are lighter, and there's even the hint of a genuine smile on his face as he sits down.

Ango's not here tonight, so it's just the two of them and the bartender.

Inquire as to what's made him so pleased?]

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[tenimuho]

['You already have', Oda wants to say. But Dazai wouldn't accept that his friendship was enough. Neither can he say 'I never wanted all this', because it's already done and he doesn't want Dazai to feel worse. And 'I didn't do anything special' isn't something even Oda would try.]

...Then don't leave. If you want to give that back, then stay with me.

[Don't shut yourself away again, and don't die.]

[ninjou]

...

[He doesn't have much he can say to that, does he? He has no real way to say he wasn't going to try to die, as that would be a lie greater than any he's ever told, and more blatant. It saps some of the drive from him to hear those words, and he knows he shouldn't have turned things down this path.

Dazai's hands run up Odasaku's chest, and he breathes before leaning in to kiss him, chaste and soft.]

[tenimuho]

[And already Oda's asked something of Dazai he can't give. Good job, Oda.

The kiss is gentle, almost sweet. Oda returns it just as softly, holding Dazai close to him.]

[ninjou]

[This... It's clearance to do more, or Dazai reads the embrace as such. He's here, they're close, and finally, finally this man he has chased for so long will somehow be his. For all that Odasaku denied it, he seems to finally be giving in, and Dazai's twisted mind decides he was right all along, that he was supposed to be with Odasaku and the other man was finally giving in to his carefully kept urges. After all, if he didn't want it, he wouldn't kiss Dazai like this.

The kiss intensifies quickly, and Dazai sighs into it before pressing his body against Odasaku's, their hips close, one hand behind Odasaku's neck and the other resting behind him on the wall.]

You wanted me all along, right?

[tenimuho]

I want you here.

[Does he love Dazai? In some sense of the word, if not romantically. Does he want him sexually? Not in particular.

But the thought of being without Dazai is agonizing. If this is what needs to be done for Dazai not to go somewhere Oda can't follow, then this is what Oda will do.]