Continuation for bandagedheart.

[thesettingsun]

[Very few people get this dressed up for a bar crawl. It looks like it'd be hell to wash, and the only reason you'd wear it out to the bar is an obsession with fashion.

So that's one clue about who this patron sitting at a table is, since he forgot to tell other-Dazai how to identify himself. As for him, when he sees Dazai come in with bandages visible on his arms, he makes an (incorrect) assumption that this is the injury that caused that text and thus this is Dazai.

Well, he's half right, at least.]

Dazai!

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[bandagedheart]

Yes. I was too late to save him. It’s one of the few regrets I have in my life.

[He cards his fingers through Shuji’s hair with a sigh.]

I often wonder why the good die young and the wicked are left to linger. It hardly seems fair, hmm?

[thesettingsun]

"Scoundrels don't die. The ones who die are always the gentle, sweet, and beautiful people."

[Shuji's gaze is far off. He remembers writing those lines as if he were at that writing desk now, and they're as true now as they were during his lifetime.]

It's unfair that when we've tried so many times to die and they've tried to live, they die before us.

[bandagedheart]

It is. But life has never been fair.

[He sighs before giving Shuji a sad little smile.]

Do you still want to die with me, Shuji-kun? Ours will be a most beautiful double suicide.

[thesettingsun]

Of course, master. Whenever you're ready, I'll die with you.

[Dying with someone he truly loves... nothing could possibly make him happier.]

[bandagedheart]

[Only Dazai would find that incredibly romantic.]

Someday. But not now.

[For now he’ll hold Shuji close. He’s the only precious person left to him now, after all.]

There’s no need to rush it.

[thesettingsun]

[Only another Dazai would mean it as a romantic gesture. They're perfect for each other.

Shuji sighs, much more relaxed than when he walked in earlier.]

I would never rush it, not with you, Dazai-sama. You deserve nothing less than a beautiful death.

[bandagedheart]

As do you. Now, let’s sleep. It’s been a long day, hm?

[Dazai seems content with falling asleep just like this.]

[thesettingsun]

[Shuji is always happy to fall asleep in Dazai's arms.

And so, as promised, Shuji accepts his punishment of no pleasure for a week. Which turns into two weeks. Which turns into three weeks, which turns into a full month of no sex and no masturbation.

He takes many cold showers, and reminds himself whenever his thoughts turn that way that this is what Dazai wants from him, so this is what will happen. Before anything else, he wants to please his master: there is a certain relief that comes with explicitly having an order to follow and following it, even if it comes at the expense of sex.

So, no sexual pleasure it is. He'll still cuddle up to Dazai when they go to sleep, but he hasn't so much as implied he misses having sex with him. He's a good pet who won't whine about his punishment, because this is what Dazai wants.]

Welcome home, master! How was work?

[As always, he'll greet Dazai with a sunny smile.

It hasn't occurred to him that Dazai may not still want this.]

[bandagedheart]

[The first week is no challenge to Dazai, because in his past he’s gone months on end without any kind of sexual contact due to various circumstances, and a week goes by fairly quickly. Week two is much tougher; while Dazai thinks that he’s a man of immense willpower, it’s becoming harder and harder to ignore how gorgeous Shuji looks at all times, or how nice he smells. It’s rough, but Dazai manages with a few masturbation sessions while Shuji is asleep.

Week three is when things really start getting rough. Every time Shuji bends over Dazai has to stop himself from coming up behind him and taking him right then and there. Their cuddle sessions become sweet torture, with Dazai slipping off to take care of himself in the middle of the night. It’s difficult, but he manages.

It’s when a month passes that Dazai finally reaches his breaking point. He can’t take this anymore; the second he comes home from work he ignores Shuji’s greeting and grabs him before pulling him into a hot, desperate kiss that leaves him aching for more.

When he pulls away Shuji will see a wild, hungry look in Dazai’s eyes that can only be described as predatory.]

Your punishment is over. Strip. Now.

[thesettingsun]

[One moment Shuji's welcoming Dazai home, the next moment he's being kissed so hard that he almost forgets how to kiss back. Almost. He's still a little dazed when Dazai pulls back, but not so much that he could miss that wild look in Dazai's eyes.

Shuji suddenly gets the idea that this has been a lot harder for Dazai than he thought.

There's no sweeter words Dazai could say right. Shuji pulls his clothes off as quickly as he possibly can - a striptease is unnecessary when the tease has been going on for a month now - leaving him only in his collar, before he starts pulling at Dazai's clothes. Be more naked.]

[bandagedheart]

[It’s a good thing that Shuji doesn’t point out how he’s managed to outlast his master, because Dazai would probably just gag him right now. He’s only a man, after all, and even he can only take so much before he breaks.

Dazai devours Shuji with his eyes, and follows him into nudity, wearing nothing but his bandages before threading his fingers in Shuji’s hair.]

Use your mouth on me.

[thesettingsun]

[Shuji would never taunt Dazai like that... in no small part because talking isn't what Shuji wants to do with his mouth at the moment. But also because Dazai being desperate for him is the greatest thing to have ever happened to Shuji, and he's too happy to think of anything that might be unkind.

He sinks to his knees and wraps his lips around Dazai's cock, wasting absolutely no time in swallowing him to the root like he was literally starving for it. His hands grip onto Dazai's thighs to brace himself while he bobs his head, sucking hard.

Build-up is also for when you haven't been missing sex for a month.]

[bandagedheart]

[Ohhh god, Dazai has missed this dearly, and he grunts as he buries both hands in Shuji’s hair and immediately starts fucking his mouth with wild abandon. He has no patience left to be gentle, and he knows that Shuji wouldn’t want him to go easy on him anyway.]

Ngh...you’re gorgeous, Kitten. Keep going.

[thesettingsun]

[Shuji wants Dazai to take pleasure from him to make up for all the time they've gone without. He loves this, Dazai holding his head still and fucking his mouth until he comes down his throat or over his face. It draws a moan out of him, the sound muffled around Dazai's cock but the vibrations clearly felt.

Thankfully, the month's break hasn't made him too out of practice at relaxing his throat. The last thing Shuji wants is for Dazai to have to slow down and be more gentle.

He's painfully hard, but he doesn't even think about touching himself, choosing instead to rub at Dazai's balls to give him even more pleasure.]

[bandagedheart]

[Shuji is such a good, obedient kitten. How could Dazai not want to reward him when he’s done his very best to please his Master? Perhaps fucking someone’s face doesn’t really seem like a suitable reward, but Shuji is obviously enjoying it, judging by how hard he is already.

Dazai doesn’t want to disappoint him either, and because he’s so pent up from going an entire month without sex he comes much quicker than he’d anticipated. He thrusts into Shuji’s mouth one last time before spilling his load right down his throat with a growl.]

Ngh...

the super ultra bad end is just them going without sex for a month

[thesettingsun]

[Dazai is the perfect master who knows exactly what Shuji wants. Shuji couldn't ask for any other.

Shuji swallows everything he's given, then pulls back, licking any remaining traces off come off of Dazai's cock. He looks, and feels, entirely blissful, like someone who's been suffering withdrawal and then finally takes a hit.]

Thank you, master.

I mean dying isn’t exactly a punishment for these two

[bandagedheart]

[Dazai pets Shuji’s hair, his smile just a little blissed out.]

Were you a good pet this entire time? You didn’t touch yourself once?

this is true

[thesettingsun]

[Right now, Shuji's happy enough with just this. He rests his face against Dazai's leg, just pleased to be touching him, to be the cause of that expression on Dazai's face and to hear his praise.]

Not even once - you're the only one who can give me pleasure, Dazai-sama.

[Even when he's not being punished, that's still true.]

[bandagedheart]

i believe you’ve earned a little reward for behaving yourself, don’t you?

[A soft pet of Shuji’s hair.]

Tell me what you want the most, Kitten.

[thesettingsun]

[What he wants the most? There are so many things he'd be happy with - no, overjoyed with, but...]

Would you take me on our bed, please? I just want to feel you again.

[It seems a bit of a silly request, now that it's left his mouth. Definitely not the kinkiest thing he's ever asked for.

But right now, what he wants the most is Dazai's skin against his, to be able to touch and worship and feel.]

[bandagedheart]

But of course. Go ahead and crawl into bed. I’ll be right there.

[And he will be, this time with no bandages to be seen. If skin to skin contact is what Shuji wants then Dazai won’t deny him.]

How do I look?

[thesettingsun]

[Obediently, Shuji crawls into their bed, not touching his own arousal while he waits for his master.

It's so very worth it when Dazai joins him.]

You're beautiful, Dazai-sama.

[Even with all his scars on display, Dazai would never be anything less than beautiful.]

[bandagedheart]

You flatter me~

[He’s hot and he knows it.

Dazai crawls onto the bed on top of Shuji, grinning from ear to ear.]

My beauty pales in comparison to yours!

[He pushes Shuji’s legs apart before sucking a bruise on his thigh.]

Did you have dreams about me while we were apart, hm?

[thesettingsun]

[It thrills him to have Dazai praise his beauty, but not as much as it thrills him to have Dazai's mouth on him again. He moans low, burying his hands in Dazai's soft hair.]

So many times - I wasn't sure if you noticed...

[How often he woke up hard and aching, and slipped off to have a cold shower.]

It's nothing compared to the real thing.

[bandagedheart]

[Dazai did indeed notice Shuji sneaking off to the bathroom in the middle of the night, but he’d trusted his Kitten not to go against his punishment enough not to follow him.]

I want you to get hard the moment you see me. I’ll be the only one who can pleasure you.

[He’s so pent up that he’s already getting hard again, and he wets his fingers with saliva before circling them around Shuji’s hole.]

You won’t be sleeping tonight, Kitten.