Thread continuation for thetaintedsorrow.

[goatsongs]

[from here]

Heh. I can think of plenty of people who'd call me vain for drinking to that one. Lucky I'm drinking with you instead.

[Chuuya drinks, naturally.]

Well, never have I ever been a sexy redhead.

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[goatsongs]

There's no way I could fight you.

[Not even for Miyazawa-sensei. Definitely not for his own life.]

[thetaintedsorrow]

If I disobey I’ll die anyway.

I’m almost tempted to let you kill him and then defect.

No guarantees I would make it out alive, though.

[goatsongs]

I can't just let you die. That's not even under consideration.

[thetaintedsorrow]

I can’t let you die either.

This is a fine fucking mess we’re in.

I can’t believe the Boss would go after the kid authors like that.

Maybe I should kill him myself.

[goatsongs]

[because the boss doesn't creep on kids ever and chuuya is totally shocked by this development, right]

Maybe we should both kill him.

Even we don't get out of this mess intact, I'll be okay with whatever happens as long as I'm still with you.

[thetaintedsorrow]

[It’s easier to serve the Boss when you conveniently gloss over that fact. Besides, until now Chuuya had only seen him with Elise...]

Let’s do it.

If we die, we die together.

There’s no other way I wanna go.

[goatsongs]

Same here.

Can I see you in person?

[To plan, and also to prepare for the worst.]

[thetaintedsorrow]

Yeah.

Let’s meet at the library tonight.

Around 8. Sound good?

[goatsongs]

Sounds good. I'll be in my room.

[It'll be unlocked when mafia-Chuuya gets there, with poet-Chuuya sitting on his bed with his knees tucked to his chest.

It makes him look smaller than he already is.]

[thetaintedsorrow]

[Chuuya hates seeing his boyfriend look so distraught, but how could he not be? They both know how this is going to end.

He sits down on the bed beside poet-Chuuya and wraps his arms around him.]

I love you.

[goatsongs]

[Chuuya leans into his boyfriend's embrace.]

I love you too. So much.

[He hates this. He wishes desperately that Mori had never crossed any of the authors' path - if only that hadn't happened, everything would be fine.

But he knows better than to think there's any way out of this situation now.]

[thetaintedsorrow]

[He hates this too. Loyalty be damned; he can’t defend Mori when he’s hurt the people his boyfriend cares about, even if he’s sworn to do so.]

How should we do it? I could use Corruption if worse comes to worse.

[goatsongs]

You hate that.

[Not being in control of himself. And with Dazai gone there isn't any safe method to bring him out of that state... Chuuya isn't going to ask him to do that to himself.]

[thetaintedsorrow]

I hate it, yeah.

[A long, drawn out sigh as Chuuya slides his fingers through poet-Chuuya’s hair.]

What else could we do? There’s gotta be some way to team up and take him down.

[goatsongs]

[Chuuya leans into his boyfriend's palm. Even the slightest bit of contact is reassuring, somehow.]

You know his abilities better than I do.

[thetaintedsorrow]

...it’s gonna have to be a surprise attack, or we’ll never get through his ability.

[A pause.]

I could try to distract him then you shoot him from afar.

[goatsongs]

Sounds like the best plan.

[Mori trusts the other Chuuya as much as he'd trust anybody. Which isn't very much... but mafia-Chuuya can be distracting when he wants to be.

Poet-Chuuya very much wants to be distracted right now.]

...Hey. Can you stay the night?

[thetaintedsorrow]

Of course.

[Chuuya wouldn’t dream of bailing right now. This could very well be their last night together, and like hell he’s going to waste it not holding his boyfriend in his arms. He curls up beside poet-Chuuya and pulls him close before pressing a kiss to his forehead.]

I’m not going anywhere.

[goatsongs]

[Good. He wants to believe they'll survive this, and this isn't their last night... But he can't convince himself that the odds are good.

Chuuya holds his boyfriend tight, and leans up to kiss his lips.]

[thetaintedsorrow]

[Chuuya kisses him right back.]

I never could’ve lived without you, you know.

[He means that poet-Chuuya’s short lifespan was always going to be a thing, so why not die together now than live on in misery?]

[goatsongs]

[Chuuya isn't the type of person (Dazai) to find that romantic. It's just sad.

Instead of answering, he kisses Chuuya again and again, clinging to him even tighter.

Can they not talk about that? Can he not have to think about that, just for a while?]

[thetaintedsorrow]

[Chuuya can read the mood, and he simply lets himself melt into every kiss, his hands gently cradling poet-Chuuya’s head. He wants his boyfriend to be happy, always, but that isn’t going to happen, is it?

Then they should spend this night getting lost in each other until morning comes.]

Hey...whatever you want tonight, I’ll give it to you, okay? I love you.

[goatsongs]

I just want you. I love you more than anything in the world - all I need is you.

[There isn't anything they should worry about giving or receiving, as long as they're in each other's arms.]

[thetaintedsorrow]

I love you too. More than anyone or anything.

[He’ll say it as many times as poet-Chuuya needs to hear it, arms wrapped around him to hold him close. He showers his face with kisses, never wanting this moment to end.]

We can sleep. All I need is you right next to me like this.

[goatsongs]

I don't want to sleep yet.

[Chuuya seeks his boyfriend's lips, kissing him deeply.

If it's their last night, he doesn't want to waste it by sleeping. Not until he has to.]