Thread continuation for thetaintedsorrow.

[goatsongs]

[from here]

Heh. I can think of plenty of people who'd call me vain for drinking to that one. Lucky I'm drinking with you instead.

[Chuuya drinks, naturally.]

Well, never have I ever been a sexy redhead.

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[thetaintedsorrow]

[Chuuya is completely tanked by the time his boyfriend knocks on his door, and he stumbles across his apartment to answer it, skin flushed and eyes glassy from intoxication.

He lets poet-Chuuya in and immediately throws himself in his boyfriend’s arms, clinging to him for dear life.]

You’re not gonna disappear on me, are you?

[goatsongs]

[Something absolutely happened for Chuuya to be this drunk and this clingy, poet-Chuuya thinks as he hugs his boyfriend back. If he was drinking alone, something went terribly wrong.]

I'm not going anywhere. What happened?

[thetaintedsorrow]

[Chuuya is fighting back tears at this point, which is highly unusual for him unless he’s really, truly upset.]

That bastard...he said all dead authors only last two years...

[He pulls back, looking like his world is about to shatter depending on poet-Chuuya’s answer.]

He’s lying, right?

[goatsongs]

[Oh. Chuuya's face falls before he can even think of hiding his expression from his boyfriend.

He would dearly like to be able to tell him Dazai is a bastard and a liar. And he has framed it in the worst possible way. But that wouldn't be honest, not really, and other-Chuuya deserves better.]

It's not that precise. Two years is more like the minimum.

[But the maximum, at least that they've discovered, is only a few years longer.]

[thetaintedsorrow]

No...

[Chuuya drops to his knees with an anguished cry, clinging to poet-Chuuya’s shirt as he finally breaks down and sobs.]

It’s not fair...it’s not...fair...

[Chuuya is finally happy, and now he finds out that his happiness has an expiration date?]

Why...?

[goatsongs]

[Chuuya's heart breaks along with mafia-Chuuya's. He falls to his knees so that he can hold his boyfriend close.]

I'm sorry... I'm so sorry...

[How could he get involved with mafia-Chuuya like this knowing that it couldn't last? Of course he knew the entire time that he wouldn't be in this world forever. He knew that, but it didn't come to his mind, just another piece of irrelevant knowledge.

Maybe some part of him assumed that mafia-Chuuya would be rid of him long before then.]

I'm so sorry, I shouldn't...

[Shouldn't have given his boyfriend the chance to be hurt like this, even if it meant never getting involved with him in the first place.]

[thetaintedsorrow]

[All Chuuya can do for the longest time is cling to his boyfriend and sob; he wants to say that he isn’t angry, that he doesn’t regret a single second of their time spent together, but all that comes out are pitiful gasps and choked sniffles as he bears his heart and soul to poet-Chuuya. Why would Dazai know that? Why would he tell Chuuya that? Is he that goddamn spiteful? He can’t even be angry at poet-Chuuya for not telling him; who wants to ruin the promise of happiness with news like that? Even if it hurts to find out like this...

Nothing has ever hurt like this, and nothing will ever come close until Chuuya is forced to watch his boyfriend die.]

I just...love you so much...

[Don’t leave me.]

[goatsongs]

[Chuuya's very tempted to find Dazai and pump bullets in him until he dies. He's not the type of person who would normally want to kill someone, but how dare he. How dare he hurt mafia-Chuuya that way.

But that's for later.]

I love you too. I'm here. I won't let you go.

[He'll hug him for years without letting go, if he has to.]

[thetaintedsorrow]

[It takes a while, but eventually his tears dry up, leaving him sniffling with red, puffy eyes.

Chuuya is reluctant to break away from his boyfriend’s embrace, but there are better places to sit than on the floor. He kisses him deeply then gets to his feet, standing on shaking, unsteady legs as the world spins around him.]

Ugh...

[The combination of booze and emotional turmoil has left him an absolute mess, and he stumbles over to the couch before flopping down on the cushions and burying his face in his hands.]

Would I just be as bad as he is if I killed him?

[goatsongs]

[Chuuya isn't nearly as drunk as his boyfriend is, but flopping on the couch sounds pretty good. He presses his face into other-Chuuya's shoulder and wraps an arm around him.]

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't contemplating murder.

[thetaintedsorrow]

[Chuuya leans his head against poet-Chuuya’s and holds him close, letting out a shaky sigh.]

He’s ruined so many goddamn lives...but then again, so have I...

[Chuuya has killed people, after all.]

My boss forbade me to kill him though...

[goatsongs]

Nobody's ordered me to do anything.

[So that's one problem he doesn't have. The issue there is that he's not as good of a fighter as his boyfriend.]

[thetaintedsorrow]

I dunno. Putting a bullet through his skull seems too fucking quick and easy for the bastard.

[No one is quite as proficient as Dazai at torture, buuuuut...]

But if we killed him it might start an all out war between the ADA and the Mafia...

[goatsongs]

Quick and easy actually works more often than long and drawn-out.

[Besides, he's not good at torture. He's a poet.]

War would be a bad thing, so you don't want me to kill him, even if I get the chance?

[thetaintedsorrow]

Yeah. Guess not.

[Chuuya presses a kiss to poet-Chuuya’s forehead.]

At least your Dazai is mostly harmless...right?

[goatsongs]

Couldn't hurt a fly. He's more of a danger to himself than anybody else.

[Just the thought's ridiculous, and eases some of Chuuya's tension.]

[thetaintedsorrow]

That’s good.

[Maybe they can bully him together sometime. But for now Chuuya snuggles closer to his boyfriend and pulls a nearby blanket around them both.]

Just...stay with me tonight, okay?

[He needs it. This closeness. More than anything he’s ever needed before.]

[goatsongs]

You couldn't get rid of me if you tried.

[He's not leaving his boyfriend. Not until the very moment he leaves this world, and not anytime soon.]

Goodnight, Chuuya. I love you.

[thetaintedsorrow]

I love you too. Good night.

[Little does he know that his world is about to be turned upside down...]