For ninjou.

[tenimuho]

[There are a lot of reasons why a person would want to humor an up-and-coming mafioso, likely to be one of the youngest executives if not the youngest executive in Port Mafia history.

But Odasaku doesn't really think of what he's doing right now, sitting down and playing video games with Dazai, as 'humoring' him. Even if he's not all that great at fighting games compared to Dazai, and even if it might be considered a little weird, a 20-year-old playing games with a 15-year-old...]

Oh, I lost again.

[...it's fun even when he loses, so he's playing.]

Good game. Want another round?

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[ninjou]

I'm glad.

[Dazai looks down again, as though contemplating something important.]

You know, my birthday is next month. Do you want to do something?

[Being Dazai's only friend, maybe he'll oblige.]

[tenimuho]

[He will, of course.]

Sure. What would you like?

[ninjou]

I don't know.

[A thought flashes through his head, and he almost voices it.]

We could do something special.

[tenimuho]

Like...?

[What does Dazai consider 'special'?]

[ninjou]

I don't know yet.

[Odasaku won't do what he wants. He knows that.]

I feel weird, though. I really almost died.

[tenimuho]

...I'm glad you're still here.

[Odasaku sets one of his hands on top of Dazai's hand, the one on his leg.]

[ninjou]

[Dazai scoots a little closer, though subtly. He likes this.]

I'm glad you care.

[tenimuho]

[More people should, but the Mafia isn't that kind of organization.]

Is it selfish that I don't want you to go?

[Since Dazai doesn't always want to stay.]

[ninjou]

[Dazai chuckles. He feels like he's older and wiser, with this being the second or third worst injury he's gotten. the worst close call in a while. He wants to be bundled up in those arms and tell Odasaku how special he makes him feel. It's not happening, but still.]

Yes. Really selfish. But I like it.

[tenimuho]

I see.

[Dazai almost died. Next time, or the time after that, he could very well die. He might not even see sixteen, let alone adulthood.

That's too much of a burden for someone to carry without struggling, but Dazai manages, somehow. Or maybe it's just that no one can see where he struggles.]

...I don't mind if you're a little selfish, then.

[His thumbs rubs softly over the back of Dazai's hand.]

[ninjou]

[Dazai's heart beats too loud at that touch, and it's very suddenly warm in here and slightly uncomfortable in his pants.

He'll push through it. He almost died. He isn't a damn child. He'll take what he wants... right?]

In what way?

[tenimuho]

Do you still want to kiss me?

[He might have changed his mind. It's not impossible. People are fickle that way.]

[ninjou]

I want to do more than kiss you.

[He smiles, calming himself.]

But I'll settle for a kiss.

[tenimuho]

[That might be asking for a little much right now.

But this much he can do. Odasaku leans towards Dazai and gives him a gentle, lingering kiss. It's much closer to their first than their second, but he isn't pulling away from this one as quickly.]

[ninjou]

[He knows. Maybe on his birthday he can talk Odasaku into something. Sixteen sounds more reasonable than fifteen, after all. For now, the kiss is brilliant.

Dazai's good hand moves to Odasaku's cheek, sliding up to toy with the very fringes of his hair as he holds the kiss. He's not letting him back away.]

[tenimuho]

[Odasaku's not trying to back away. His free hand rests on the small of Dazai's back, gently stroking down his spine.

The kiss is slowly deepening, and Odasaku makes a pleased sound when Dazai plays with his hair.]

[ninjou]

[He breaks this kiss only a fraction, but he has a hand on Odasaku's neck now, holding him close.]

It's not wrong. I told you.

[And he dives back in, slow and sensual, leading a little as he lets Odasaku process that.]

[tenimuho]

[Odasaku hasn't overcome all his reservations, but - but he can do this much without too much guilt. Whatever guilt there is is becoming less and less important to him every time Dazai's lips touch his.

He returns Dazai's kiss, letting him take the lead this time. He ends up leaning the rest of his body closer, rather than pulling away..]

[ninjou]

[Good. Kiss him. Get close. The closer Odasaku gets, the more easily Dazai can convince him to do something else. Maybe. He'll try.

Dazai settles his injured hand on Odasaku's leg, lightly letting his fingertips trace a short line, back and forth.]

[tenimuho]

[Well then. Odasaku will just start to play with Dazai's hair as they kiss. It's lovely, soft hair. He could run his fingers through it all day.]

[ninjou]

[Dazai makes a small, soft sound into the kiss, unquestionably erotic. He doesn't care how it comes across. He's sore and he nearly died.]

[tenimuho]

[It does come off as erotic, and Odasaku hates that he wants to hear it again, but he does. He pulls away just an inch, looking at Dazai with hazy eyes.]

...I don't understand what you're doing to me. I was so sure I'd never do this.

[He has sympathy for Dazai's situation, but that doesn't explain Odasaku wanting to do more with him. Wanting him.]

[ninjou]

[He tugs at Odasaku's bottom lip with gentle teeth. Then he sighs indulgently.]

There's nothing wrong with wanting something. Or someone. I'm just telling you it's okay if that's me.

[He laughs quietly.]

[tenimuho]

[Odasaku sighs, too.]

I'm still not completely sure about it. But I'll get over myself.

[ninjou]

Really?

[Leaning in, Dazai begins to trail kisses down Odasaku's neck.]

Hey, for my birthday...