For ninjou.

[tenimuho]

[Tonight, Dazai is really drunk.

This is not different from most other nights in their favorite bar, save for a few things.

1. Ango isn't here.

2. Dazai is really drunk. The kind of drunk that has Odasaku concerned that he might be trying to die through liver failure. That drunk.

And so, it's with hesitation that he speaks up.]

Maybe you should stop drinking for tonight.

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[tenimuho]

[Odasaku turns his head so he can give Dazai a brief kiss.]

I love you, Osamu.

[ninjou]

I love you, too. But I'm never going to stop calling you Odasaku.

[tenimuho]

That's fine. Sakunosuke would sound weird.

[ninjou]

It takes too long...

[tenimuho]

Your name is simpler. Less syllables.

[ninjou]

Mm, a little bit. It sounds good when you say it.

[tenimuho]

Really?

[He whispers it in Dazai's ear.]

Osamu.

[ninjou]

[FUCK.

He shivers and presses against Odasaku.]

Hngh.

[tenimuho]

[He chuckles at the reaction.]

You like hearing it that much?

[ninjou]

I like your voice. I'm not used to you doing all of this yet, so I really... keep wanting more. I'm going to get addicted, and then what are you going to do?

[tenimuho]

I'll take responsibility.

[...whatever that entails. He's not exactly sure.]

[ninjou]

We'll never be that couple that gets to sneak off or... hold hands. You're okay with that, right?

[tenimuho]

I know. I'm fine with that.

[Their lives just won't allow for that kind of public affection.]

[ninjou]

But I'll love you all the same. If you're ever in trouble, I'll come to you.

[tenimuho]

Only if I can do the same for you.

[ninjou]

You... you know you can't really protect me, right? Not sometimes. I'll rely on your ability, though, if you'll rely on mine.

[tenimuho]

...That'll have to be good enough.

[He doesn't like it, but those are the facts - he can't protect Dazai from everything.]

[ninjou]

It's more than enough. I don't... think I...

[He pauses, thinking on his own morbid mindset, and decides to change directions.]

...could work with anyone else quite the way I work with you.

[tenimuho]

[...that doesn't seem to quite flow, but okay.]

I feel similarly.

[ninjou]

[It was going to be morbid, okay. Be glad he stopped.]

If I could change the world to make you happy, I would.

[Sometimes he can't stop the executive in him.]

[tenimuho]

That's impossible. [Pause.] But I'd do the same for you, if it weren't.

[ninjou]

I'm not going to let you down.

[He kisses Odasaku's neck.]

I refuse.

[tenimuho]

Mm. [Whether or not that's possible, it's sweet.]

Let's go back to bed.

[ninjou]

Alright.

[He steps back, taking Odasaku's hand and leading him back, flopping back on the bed first before dragging him along.]