[Alter thread.]

[unknownrival]

[Issei had failed Diarmuid, not the other way around.

He should have known that Shadow was too great for him to defeat. Should have kept Diarmuid far away from it by any means necessary. If he'd used a Command Spell - but he'd hesitated too long on using one, and now his beloved was gone.

He didn't know what to do.

He'd wandered aimlessly around the city, only returning to the temple to sleep and not willing to speak to the other monks. It was an abandonment of his duties there, but he... he couldn't handle that right now. He wanted time to himself, to deal with his failure.

Issei barely registered that he was in the woods. All that mattered was that he was alone.]

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[unknownrival]

I won't.

[He took a deep breath to steady himself, gripping the lance tightly enough that he feared breaking it.

This was all he could do for him. He could do it. Somehow.

Issei aimed at Diarmuid's heart, forced back tears, and plunged.]

[croibhristeoir]

[...oh. That hurt. That hurt, but it was alright. If it hurt, that meant some part of him was still Diarmuid--still his Diarmuid. That was important, even if he couldn't remember why.]

I'm...sorry.

[His voice seemed a little quieter, more like the knight Issei had known rather than the vengeful shadow. Diarmuid raised a shaking hand to rest lightly against Issei's face, a faint smile breaking through his twisted and corrupted appearance.]

I love you.

[Faint and strained as it was, the smile remained on Lancer's face until he disappeared.]

[unknownrival]

[Issei stood there for a very long time after Diarmuid disappeared, and did not move.

He had killed his love. There was nothing in this world that could soothe him.]