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[redsorcerer]

THE THESE ARE MY CONFESSIONS MEME

Does your character have a deep dark secret that they don't want out? Well, too bad. Something has just forced your characters to reveal their inner most secrets, true identities and even elements of their own past that they've tried to forget. What shouldn't be known is suddenly known. What shouldn't be said is suddenly exclaimed.

Of course, not every secret has to be deep and dark.  Some may get into TMI territory, or just be plain embarrassing.  Up to you how serious your confessions are.

No one can lie in a thread, you lack the capacity to. All confessions are truthful and sincere. It's uncontrollable what you say to a person.

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Midorikawa Retasu | Tokyo Mew Mew

[aquaticrush]

I almost destroyed the universe.

[cherryblooded]

That seems unlike you.

[aquaticrush]

I didn't mean to! J-just...

[cherryblooded]

Do you mind telling me about it?

[aquaticrush]

...Okay.

[Deep breaths. Looking at the ground.]

Throughout most of my life, I was always bullied and pushed around. Then I made real friends and my life got a lot better. I had disappointments, and my love life never amounted to anything, but I was doing well.

Well, I... um. I was hurt. By something I couldn't have stopped and eventually would have gotten over. Somebody I trusted took advantage of how bad I was feeling about myself and tried to make sure I only listened to him, saying I could make up for everything I'd done to inconvenience my important person and I could keep him and all my friends from ever getting hurt by the community we were on. And it really had hurt them. He, ah, I mean the person I cared about, he was so afraid that nothing was real anymore and he didn't want to go for the things that would make him happy anymore. It was horrible. So I listened to this person and tried to stop it.

I was being lied to. He knew I was hurt and I wanted to be useful. He made sure I hated myself more. I still hate myself. It's hard even now to say it wasn't all my fault or that I didn't deserve what almost happened.

I'm sorry. I'm really sorry.

[cherryblooded]

[He listens intently, and when she's done, pats her shoulder.]

It's not your fault that people lied to you. If you've learned from the experience, then you've done all you could.

[aquaticrush]

[Whimpers.]

But I... even now, I feel like I can't make up for it.

[cherryblooded]

If that were true, then there would be no point in doing good things. But you still do good things anyway, right?

[aquaticrush]

I try to. I mess up a lot.

[cherryblooded]

Just because you've done bad things in the past, doesn't erase the possibility that you could do good in the future. I've had to learn it myself.

[aquaticrush]

It still feels like I'm not worth anything. I still keep wondering what I could have done differently, even if I know the answer won't help.

[cherryblooded]

It won't. You can't change the past even if you come up with the way to fix all your mistakes.

[aquaticrush]

And I can't make myself perfect or different, either.

[cherryblooded]

So why waste the energy?

[aquaticrush]

It's hard to know what else to do. And it feels like everything my life maybe could have been is gone, even though I know it couldn't have turned out well anyway and even though I can find happy things now.

[cherryblooded]

It's much better to focus on the happy things you can find now than to worry about what could have been.

[aquaticrush]

You're right. It's more fair to other people, too.

[cherryblooded]

Exactly. I'm sure you can do it if you make the effort.

[aquaticrush]

I haven't even told -- well, everybody probably knows, people say things, but I don't want the person I'm with right now to hate me because I nearly destroyed the universe for someone I couldn't be with. Especially someone I still love and probably always will, even if I've tried to get over the whole thing.

[cherryblooded]

It's still important to be honest with the people you love, even about painful things. I don't always follow that advice myself... but it's good advice.

[aquaticrush]

How can I expect other people to still like me if I don't?

[cherryblooded]

Sometimes we magnify our own flaws.

[aquaticrush]

Um... You can't lie either now, right? What do you dislike about me?

[cherryblooded]

That you apologize for things you shouldn't apologize for.

[aquaticrush]

I'm sorry-- ah! No! I mean...